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Tuesday, December 31, 2013

accomplishing your mission

I do not remember exactly what my last year`s resolutions are I do remember ,however, how I was so determined to change my way of thinking to overcome my jealousy and tendency to be negative thinking and also to shed some weight. setting a goal and being determined are just first steps. the next step,training yourself for new habits is the hardest. there were times I felt my efforts were useless. I am thankful God helps me along the way. by the end of this year, I have learnt to be thankful everyday. I realized God's blessings are new everyday. there is no reason to be not thankful. I accomplished writing my thank you blog everyday to God. I also accomplished shedding my weight almost 5 kgs by running 5-10 km twice a week at least. what a sweet revenge to my lazy fat self and those who mocked me back then because of me being over weight. accomplishing a mission never feels this good. it taught me accomplishment can only be achieved by determination, discipline, and pryer. it also reminds me ther are things I have to achieve in the next year. I have not accomplished my prayer and devotion time early in the morning and night. I have not accomplished my "one day one journal" I have not accomplished learning new foreign languge, I am considering Chinese. so,there, I am determined to accomplish my new missions while staying discipline for the accomplished ones. let the new year`s quest begin. God speed!

Thursday, December 26, 2013

setting the bar

Consciously or not, most of the times, there's this urge to do every thing perfectly,
if not with a lot of toil.
I guess one of the reason is that, since I was a child I was expected to do my best.
to set a good example for my younger sisters.

Honestly, it felt like a burden, at first.
Then, somehow it turns out to be something that natural for me.
Looking from my younger sisters' side, especially, the youngest,
I, sometimes, feel guilty.
She might think I set the bar too high for them to reach.
I hope it is just solely my assumption.
As a defense or not, the reason why I want to achieve as high as I can, is actually not to set the bar they
have to get through, yet,
to show them that they can also do the same thing because we have the same guide, GOD.
that every achievement requires hard work and determination, aside, of course, GOD.
that it is not impossible.
that if you want you can overcome your obstacles in reaching your dream and passion.
Thus, those reasons become my self motivation.

I can not afford to fail
not because I want to be the perfect daughter.
It is because I do not want to see them fail without even trying.

A Sweet Revenge

There is no better thing than harvesting your hard work and enjoy your result

For now, after struggling with body weight rebound, I came back on track

smiling to those who have thought I will be lost in my fatty self

Friday, December 13, 2013

Going back to eternal home

There is nothing in this world that can compare the happiness when
someone you highly admire or respect such as my parents, grandparents, godmother and godfather,
and advisors looked at you and said, `You did well` or `Yo, ganbatta ne.`

It might sound crazy,
but sometimes I do think what will happen when I die.
But if my time come,
there is one thing I hope to hear the most, if I can, from my God ,
that very same words.

That would be the best thing ever.